it’s different with everyone, believe me. It hurt me more being unhappy with soccer. it’s a passion. it’s my light at the end of a dark horrid day. it’s to be held on the side of my focus in life. playing college ball was a job. not on the side anymore. soccer was life. and there’s nothing wrong with that, but soccer, for me, wasn’t a job. it wasn’t my life. yes, i am damn good at it, but i have no intention or desire to go professional. my profession is in the medical field. i want to dedicate my time to my studies. and i want soccer to remain that light at the end of the tunnel. playing college ball made that light intertwine with the darkness. it was constant. repetitive. i never had a break. if soccer is your life, then play in college. if it’s your means of paying for school, then play in college. but my life is my studies. and my breath of fresh air is soccer. it’s hard to take time out of your life for a breath of fresh air, when that fresh air becomes undistinguishable. 

yes i’ll get another PO box. 

my parent’s could always forward it to my new address. nothing will be left behind. and it has a solid four weeks to get here before i move anyway. 

Yes

heheh, you my friend, do not know me. there’s nothing to me that makes me deserving of “tumblr” fame, per say. i know there are FAR prettier girls out there and on here. i am aware; however, allow myself to brag: 
-graduated high school early, getting an associates degree simultaneously at the age of 17. 
-played soccer for a team ninth in the nation. began leading goal scorer
-was in the starting line up as striker (out of 34 girls from all over the world who were all the best at their own teams)
-top of my calculus class at age 15-16.
-my writing asked to be published in the literary magazine at my college
-began playing soccer at age 14, at age 15 i made it through tryouts and made the “C” team for a premier soccer club. at 16, i retried out and made the “B” team for that soccer club. at 17, i retried-out and made the uppermost advanced team they have. at 18 i was recruited from that team to various schools. ended up choosing the one that won the entire championship
-at 19 i decided i needed to focus on my major. i quit collegiate soccer. i got accepted into an exchange that permits in-state tuition to an out of state school. 
-at 19, i am moving to Los Angeles California, majoring in cellular and molecular biology, and paying (rather than 20,000 for out of state tuition), 9,000 for instate tuition. 
-at 19, i’m registered for more calculus, organic chemistry, and biology
-at 19, i’m comfortable with being a lesbian and i like to inspire people. 

i may not be “special,” looks wise, but i sure as hell know there is a lot more to me than your average run of the mill girl. i will not adhere to being ordinary. i know nothing of being bland. 

and don’t come at me saying i’m cocky. again, you don’t know me.  

HELL no. no offense of course, it is nothing personal. but i have eleven thousand messages in my inbox. i would have absolutely no life if i responded to them all. or even could read them all. it’s sheer luck whichever one i respond to.